Sunday, December 28, 2008
F.A.T
I fear putting on weight. Not because I am fat. But for someone whose weight has never hit over 50kg in her entire life and hovering around 44-46kg since in my twenties, gaining an extra kilos of flesh can be quite detrimental emotionally. Like any painfully vain bimbo, I embrace the idea that being slim is beautiful. Before anyone points his/her finger at me and accuses me of being a bitch who ridicules at inflated human beings, let me clarify that weight issues concerning others do not bother me at all. In fact, I think some people who have more flesh than usual do look beautiful and stunning. And I am envious of the fact that they have boobs.
I've gained a few pounds of flesh since my move to Algeria. For the first 6 months here, I've lost a considerable amount of weight due to several reasons such as difficulties adjusting to the new environment, lack of variety of food, missing home etc. But ever since I returned to Algeria after my trip back home in July, my weight has increased. And it has been heading north since then. On my recent trip back home in October, my grandmother-in-law told my mum-in-law that I was more fleshy. My mum-in-law then complimented on my weight gain and that I looked better with more flesh. But I was rather disturbed by the flattery. My ex-students whom I met up with also commented that I looked chubby in the face. That really upset me. I spent a good few hours staring at myself in the mirror the next day and asked myself life's most perilous question - AM I FAT?
So a few days ago, the same question started bugging me again as I've been feeling bloated from over consumption of carbs and chocolates. I decided to scrutinise the pictures of myself taken months ago and compared with the recent ones. Yes. It's confirmed. My face is rounder and chubbier. The pictures said it all. Alas, a catastrophe has befallen me.
Friday, December 26, 2008
Project "Celebrate with a Child"
It was a night filled with joy and laughter. The kids enjoyed themselves and loved the goodie bags filled with candies. The smiles on their faces brought joy to all of us. It was indeed a very meaningful way to celebrate Christmas. I'm looking forward to next Christmas. Hopefully we could include more kids the next time round.
Wednesday, December 24, 2008
It's Done!
Monday, December 22, 2008
Mee Siam
Saturday, December 20, 2008
Christmas Tree
It isn't the most good-looking tree but I chose it due to its manageable size. The ones which I initially wanted were all tall and huge. It would be a tedious task for my driver to unearth it and carry it to the car. And from where we were, it wasn't exactly near to the place where we parked the car.
Mission accomplished.
The locals do not celebrate Christmas. There's no way we could get Christmas decorations for the tree. So I have to make them myself. Mostly, I used aluminium foil as the main material. I made a star out of a cardboard and wrapped it with aluminium foil. The star was placed on top of the tree. I also crushed the aluminium foil into balls and hung them on the tree. I intend to add a touch of gold to it. It's a little too boring with silver all over. So I'll be getting ferrero rochers and hanging them up on the tree. After Christmas, we could all enjoy the chocolates. I haven't bought the lights yet and will get my driver to buy them from town soon.
Thursday, December 18, 2008
Eh Mister!
Would you please grow up?
Don't be a whiner when your fat belly growls.
The belly is yours.
The responsibility is yours.
So stop all the complaining
And act like an adult.
Eh Mister!
Would you please grow up?
Your mind is corrupted.
Your breath smells like trash.
So clean up your act
And give others their due respect.
Eh Mister!
Would you please grow up?
Your yakkati yakkati yak has ended.
So let's not start another round.
Speak only when you are told.
For the noise would only do damage to the soul.
Eh Mister!
WOULD YOU JUST GROW UP?!?
Blackout for 18 hours
The weather was cold and wet that day. And of all day, we had to live without electricity that night. The blackout took place at about 10pm. There was pretty much nothing we could do except to go to bed and hid under the duvet. And to show how cold it was that night without our electric heater, I had on me 3 layers of clothings excluding my thermal wear and wore 2 pairs of socks.
The hubby began his symphony of snoring once he hit the bed while I tried very hard to get into a slumber. My attempt was futile. The harder I tried, the more awake I was. It was simply too cold to fall asleep.
At around 1.30am, there was a sudden deafening sound of rapid succession of beats on the roof top. The sound was unlike the pitter patter of the rain and yet it sounded familiar. I thought it might be a hail. I got out of bed to check and true enought it was hailing! Overwhelmed with excitement, I woke the hubby up. The hubby went to the front door to confirm what I had told him. When he opened the door, what lay before our eyes were hailstones on the ground! I couldn't help but squeal with joy as I witnessed hailstones raining from the sky. It was the second time we had a hail!
I could not remember when I fell asleep but when I woke up the next morning, my eyelids were heavy and I felt as if my whole body was frozen. There was still no electricity and it was pouring outside. I refused to get out of bed and decided to be a polar bear that hibernates during winter. At about 2 plus in the afternoon, I finally quit being a polar bear. The sleep proved to be too much for me. I could feel there was a dent at the back of my head.
I tried to read while waiting for the electricity to come on. At about 4 plus, we finally had electricity! I was overjoyed! Imagine living in freezing cold for 18 hours! I hope I won't ever go through such torture again!
Thursday, December 11, 2008
My Hero!
"Wah! Took out already! 10 sec. Can't talk now." I would imagine the whole procedure to be rather frightening not to mention of extreme pain. If I were in the hubby's shoe, I doubt I would have the courage to let an Algerian dentist extract my wisdom tooth. I just don't think I would be in safe hands. My hubby is truly brave! He's my hero!
So after several hours, the hubby came home a mute. Once he stepped into the house, I bombarded him with numerous questions which all suggested one main concern I had - if it was safe to extract the wisdom tooth. I read on several websites that there could be some complications involved removing a wisdom tooth. The nerves could be damaged if not done properly.
Unable to speak, the hubby nodded his head and replied a weak 'Yes' and 'Ok' just to assure me that he was fine. He then took out his wisdom tooth all wrapped up in tissue paper. I know I run the risk of sounding like a bimbo but I have to say the wisdom tooth looked rather huge for a tooth. The first reaction was an "eeeekk!" followed by the must-take-pic reaction. So, here's a pic of the hubby's wisdom tooth.
Later that evening, the hubby made a confession over dinner. The hubby told me that his heart was actually palpitating wildly when the dentist was about to extract the tooth. I asked him why. He said he was afraid that it would be painful. When I heard that, I was laughing secretly inside my heart. "Heehee...u also scare of pain!", a voice sounded in my head. Then I told myself, "Never mind lah! You are still my hero!"
Tuesday, December 9, 2008
Eve of Eid al-Adha
Besides the stationery, we also brought with us chocolates. The kids were so happy to receive the gifts. I could see the joy on their faces which made me even happier. Some of them even remembered to say 'thank you' - something which I had taught them when they received something from someone. I was really delighted. I felt like a teacher all over again while I was in the classroom. It is truly a blessing to give than to receive!
Friday, December 5, 2008
It's Raining Ice!!!
Monday, November 24, 2008
Noise Irks Me
The mouth never ceased to shut. It was constantly moving - Opened. Closed. Opened. Closed - in a monotonous manner. How unexciting!
All these yakkati yakkati yak are pure fluff. Would you just shut up and do your job? All the noise you are making fail to impress me.
Now, for more interesting details worth mentioning. A stylish leather jacket. A satisfying kebab meal and stunning night scenery on top of a hill on a freezing night.
Thursday, November 20, 2008
I Want to be a Farmer
My Thoughts
Shin has breast cancer twice and so did my mum. Since the day my mum passed away, I have been living in fear that I would someday suffer like my mum did and eventually die of breast cancer too. I try to shake away that thought from time to time but my attempts are always futile. At the end of the day, I'm still haunted by it. I reckon there's no way I could rid that fear within me. Perhaps the only way is to accept the fact that human beings do get sick and eventually die. That is life.
This morning, as I lay on my bed, I thought of my mum. I remember her bringing me to a family living opposite my block of flat in the morning while she worked as a laundry lady. I remember the outfit she wore when she attended my primary school story telling competition which I took part in. I remember how my mother helped to support the family by bringing odd jobs home to do. I remember the times she brought my sis and I to Toa Payoh where she would buy us new clothes. There are many things I remember about my mum and I'm glad those memories did not fade away as time passes by. On the contrary, images of my mum become more vivid.
Each time I think of my mum, the guilt in me resurfaces. I have probably never told this to anyone except the hubby. I feel guilty cos I was never a good daughter when my mum was sick. As a fourteen year old teenager, I was self centered, selfish and insensitive to my family needs. I cared more for my friends rather than my mum who was dying. I did not share the responsibilty of looking after my sick mum with my sis. My sis was the only one who took good care of my mum while she struggled to study for her 'A' levels. My sis probably hated me for this but I don't think I would ever know. We never talked about our feelings towards my mum's death. Even after so many years, I find it hard to talk about it.
I wonder if my mum did blame me for being a selfish brat. If she did, did she ever forgive me? Was I forgiven? There's no way I can know the answer now. I wish for a day when my mum would appear in my dreams and tell me that I was forgiven and she still loves me.
Back to Shin's story. Hers is a story of courage and hope. Read it and hopefully you will learn to live a life of no regrets. http://shinscancerblog.blogspot.com/
Monday, November 17, 2008
You've Got Mail
I remember during my primary school days, I used to make a list of friends who would receive my Christmas cards. I would go shopping for Christmas cards and be intrigued by the wide array of designs. I usually took a long time to chose the cards, making sure that my best friends would get the best designs. Those who were categorised under 'just friends' would receive the 'not too bad' ones. Such effort in chosing cards and categorising friends! Ha!
I can't remember when I had stopped sending Christmas cards. As I grew older, the excitement of buying, writing and sending Christmas cards gradually died off. I guess I didn't have the time to shop for cards. Besides, it's such a hassle to find out my friends' home addresses and to buy stamps. There's always the most convenient way of sending Christmas wishes via SMS or email. There's no need for snail mail anymore.
But there's something heartwarming and special in receiving a card in the mailbox. That irreplaceable feeling puts a wide smile on my face. I feel loved. It may just be a simple card but I fully appreciate the effort in sending it out.
This Christmas, I want to revive sending my Christmas wishes by conventional means. I hope my family and friends would feel the same way as I do when they find that little envelope filled with love in the mailbox.
Saturday, November 15, 2008
I'm Back!!
I spent 2weeks back home and I wish it had been longer. There were so many things to do and some of them I didn't manage to accomplish. I didn't even visit my dog and I'm still feeling guilty about it. I'm a bad mommy. Period.
I brought back with me 65kg worth of toiletries, food and stationery. Isn't that impressive? Fortunately, we didn't have to pay for the extra 25kg cos we were entitled to an extra 30kg. Thanks to frequent flyer program. I have the license to bring back more stuff from now on which means I can set up a mini ali mama shop here already. It's a good way to earn some extra pocket money since I'm jobless. Hmm...
I've stashed away all the food in a cupboard. Every now and then, I would open the cupboard and admire the colourful packagings. That's when my face would crease into a smile. I feel happy by just looking at all the food I've had, especially the junk food section (Yes! SECTIONS! You've heard it right. I've organised the types of food I have in sections.). It's like I've gone grocery shopping in Cold Storage/NTUC. The experience is simply exhilarating!
I'm not sure if anyone out there feels the same way as I do. Maybe I'm just being weird or food deprived. Anyway, I'm absolutely ecstatic with all the food I have. I can cook up a storm in the kitchen! I can stuff my face with all the junk food! I can make jelly! I can fry keropok! Woohoo!!!
Thursday, October 16, 2008
I'm Innocent!!!
Apparently, some inhuman Chinese nationals bought a donkey and kept it at the back of the kitchen. They were planning to kill it and serve it to all of us as lunch/dinner. We, the Singaporeans, did not know anything about the donkey until the mayor came. Some Algerians (I suspect he/she must be one of the kitchen helpers) had obviously told him and hence, he came to rescue the poor donkey.
I was appalled when I learnt about the shocking news. I couldn't believe anyone could be so cruel to kill a donkey and eat it! And they were planning to feed us (Singaporeans) with it without letting us know what it was! Well, perhaps they could stomach a donkey but definitely not us! This is absolutely barbaric! What's more! The poor donkey was left in the torrential rain for several days before the sky finally decided to clear! How could they have the heart to mistreat a living breathing thing!
Now, I'm seriously going to scrutinise the food I eat, question what they are and where they come from. Or I can boycott the food from the common kitchen.
The Chinese nationals have definitely earned themselves a really really BAD reputation. HUGE. BIG TIME. They are infamous for eating dogs and now I guess, they could add donkeys to their menu too. And the bad thing is the Algerians think that we, the Singaporeans, are like them. I seriously wanna wear a huge sign board around my neck that says, "I'm innocent! I don't eat donkey!!!"
Monday, October 13, 2008
I Miss Summer
Yesterday, there was a drastic change in weather. The sky was gloomy all day but it didn’t rain. Instead, we had a mini sand storm. The wind was strong and warm. It was uncomfortable staying outdoors. Not only did I feel dusty all over, at some point, I felt suffocated by the warm air. Besides, everything from afar looked hazy. It was my first experience of a sand storm. Thankfully, it was just a mini one. I wonder what would happen if a real sand storm comes knocking on our door. Nah. I would gladly give that a miss.
Wednesday, October 8, 2008
Rainy Days & OranguT-A-N-G
So just a few hours ago, I couldn't watch TV and the internet was down. So basically, it was back to good old primitive days when technology didn't exist. But the good thing is, I don't have to water my plants on rainy days.
Now, the rain has stopped and I finally get to watch TV. I'm watching a programme on saving the Orangutan on 101 East. The narrator irks me when he says 'OranguT-A-N-G'. Why can't he just pronounce OranguT-A-N? Repeat after me, please. 'O-RANG-U-TAN!' Get it?
Monday, October 6, 2008
Is it October already?
The past 10 months were filled with many memories which would take more than a lifetime to fade away. I would never forget the first few months in Algeria - the fear of walking on the streets while men stared at me hostilely, the frustrations of having to adjust to a new environment where time stood still 10-15 years ago, the many times I cried cos I missed home terribly, the first experience of a bitter cold winter and the excitement of exploring new places. I doubt I would ever have such an adventure if the hubby and I hadn't decided to move to Algeria. I remember a few of my friends were skeptical of our decision. 'It's a hardship posting, isn't it? Are you sure?', they asked. I cannot deny that at some point of time, I was indeed unsure of our decision. It is afterall a 'not-so-galmorous' place to work in, considering it a third world country. Besides, terrorist attacks are common. Will it be safe to live in Algeria? But the hubby and I eventually stick to our decision.
This may sound cliche but living here has made me realise how fortunate I am. The folks here lead a simple life. For some, a difficult life. Taking a shower may be a luxury for some. Having mineral water to drink is pure bliss. Being able to attend school is a blessing. For many, it's a struggle to even provide the basic necessities for their family. I looked at the household appliances I have in the house, the food in the fridge, the cartons of mineral water at a corner and asked myself, 'Is this a hardship posting?'. If it is, then life would have been more than miserable for these people. Indeed, I am and we are ALL very fortunate in many ways compared to the folks here.
I'm glad we made the decision to move out of our comfy little paradise. It's a paradise here as well - just a different kind from home. It's a good break for me from the usual routine back home. I get to do whatever I like and I'm thankful to be able to travel too. And I get to spend more time with the hubby. Afterall, we only have each other here. =)
So, it IS October already! And that's good news! Cos I'm going home soon! YAY! I can't wait to see my family. Another 16 more days to go! WOO HOO!!!
Sunday, October 5, 2008
Good Samaritan
A note and Korean instant noodles for me. That made my day!
Cute little toys for the kids. I was contemplating if I should keep one for myself. NAH! Pens and pencils for the kids.Sunday, September 28, 2008
Sinfully Yummy!
Friday, September 26, 2008
Mourning
To hold you and to say my last goodbye
You were such a loyal companion
Weathering through the darkest days in my life
And sharing my joy when the sun shines brightly in the sky
I'm sorry I didn't take good care of you
I didn't mean to leave you behind
I wish I could turn back time
To let you know you are always mine
But that would forever be an unfulfilled dream of mine
Vroom! Vroom!
I had my first driving lesson this afternoon. My driving instructor is none other than my ever patient hubby. I learnt how to change gears, control the clutch, the accelerator and the brake. The engine stalled a couple of times and twice, the wheels were 'stuck' in the sand. The hubby had to take over the wheels and help me out. Other than that, I was an expert moving like a snail at an average speed of 20km per hour on 2nd gear. I so very much wanted to step harder on the accelerator but the hubby instructed, 'Don't accelerate! Don't accelerate! Step on the brake!'
I did a couple of rounds along the beach and eventually drove back home. I would say I did pretty well as a first timer! Yay!
Tuesday, September 23, 2008
Paris & London
I was in awe all the time during the Europe trip. I was amazed and completely blown away by the grandeur and stupendousness of the architecture, impressive monuments, great works of art and stunning beauty of the seductive city. I adored the sound produced whenever a Parisian or Londoner spoke - so refined, soothing and captivating. I'm in love with Paris and London and I'm very certain the memories I had will linger for many years to come.
View of the glass Pyramid from inside Musee du Louvre.
Notre Dame - The Cathedral of Our Lady of Paris. Pope Benedict XVI was in Paris on the day we visited Notre Dame. A mass was held that morning but the hubby and I watched it on the TV instead. While in the cathedral, I felt an incredible sense of serenity and calmness.
Musee d'Orsay - the first museum we visited in Paris. I could not help but marvelled at the sheer stupendousness of the museum.
The av des Champs-Elysees is lined with super sized chain stores and luxury fashion houses. I've heard others said, 'If you are in Paris, you have to buy LV!'. True???
Arc De Triomphe. The hubby and I climbed a long flight of spiral staircase to get to the viewing platform. It was a darn good workout. I was out of breath when I reached the top.The Tower Bridge which is located just near the exit of Tower of London.
Night view of The London Eye. The hubby and I took the London Eye and was blown away by the breathtaking night scenery of the city.
View of the Big Ben and Houses of Parliament from the London Eye. And there's also the Westminster bridge and the River Thames.